…not a full blown fight.
Just a, well, I don’t know. A misunderstanding? Over-reaction? Silliness? The start of a comfort that’s too much like complacency?
Had me one of those today. Don’t want another one!!
What about? A game of cricket of all things. He was watching it, I was on lunch and wanted all the attention. Noticed the distraction and commented on it. And a reaction was created that I did not expect. I did not feel good. It was as if something was physically removed from my life. I don’t want to feel that way ever again. Suppose I’m just going to have to deal with the fact that he likes watching sport. I’ve never been the sporty type – not participating, nor watching. Going to have to find things to do while Liverpool is playing a game – sharpish 😉
Dunno of the air has been completely cleared just yet – I did offer him my last Rolo – maybe that will help some. And it sucks that we’re not seeing one another until Sunday morning! If I went home like other, normal couples, I could have apologised with a meal or something. Backrub, footrub, whatever comes to mind. As it is, I only have words, no actions. And one thing I can’t allow is that we go to bed angry, or miffed or whatever this out of sorts feeling should be named.
The even keel has been upset. The waters are not quite as stormy as they can be I suppose but the swell has visibly risen. Not quite time to batten down the hatches, or the tying of a line to the mast, but careful footing is definitely required. Maybe an oilskin just for in case…
OK. Enough of that. I don’t like feeling like this. As if my heart is parking off outside my body, hanging by a thread. Wonder how I can get it back to it’s usual place again. Maybe time will do the trick. Or some tunes. If only I can calm my body down – stop the inevitable reaction to emotional upheaval. Alas. What needs to happen, will.
For now, I’m happy to mention that I’ll be going dancing tonight. Have a lesson booked with a prospective new teacher on Thursday. And another one next week. Maybe that will make up for the awful feeling I’ve had this afternoon.
long days and pleasant nights…