Do I?

Feel guilty that is?

I thought I should maybe attempt the Daily prompt for once.

A guilty pleasure that you hate to love.

The question is, for me, Do I feel guilty?

When I buy a chocolate bar, or melt half a slab in a cup of hot milk? Nope, I don’t.

If I buy a magazine, do I feel guilty about it? Nope, I don’t.

If I spend a bit of cash on a lovely shade of nail polish, Β or a new eye pencil. Nope I don’t.

Reason being, I’ve made sure that everything’s paid that should be paid. I don’t take from Arthur to pay Martha. The money I spend is my reward for being me. I work every day. Don’t I also deserve a spot of spoiling?

For many years my life was filled with children and their needs. A husband and his demands.

Now, it’s only me. I’ve paid my dues to society. It’s my turn now.

Never again will I have to feel guilty because I loathe cooking – nobody needs me to feed them anymore.

Never again will I feel bad for buying myself a cool shirt – my children can now buy their own.

Never again will I feel guilty for playing my tunes a tad louder than needed. It’s only me in the house now.

I might feel guilty for downloading kindle books and pay for it with the credit card. But not for too long. Reading is more than just a pleasure. It’s the thing that keeps me sane. That allows me to fly away and share somebody else’s life, even if only Β for a while, and even if only in my fantasies.

I suppose if I dwell on everything that’s happened in my life, I could very well feel guilty dor some of the things I’ve done. And if I let it, I do.

At the end of the day though – does that make any difference to my life now? Will me feeling guilty change anything? Indeed, it will. It will rob me of the simple pleasure of eating a chocolate. Of reading a book. Of walking in my garden.

Therefore, I try not to do things that goes against my grain – because that WILL make me feel guilty – because I’ve disappointed myself. And that’s not a good thing to do.

I will take life’s little pleasures where I can find them.

And I refuse to feel guilty doing something that I enjoy.

Because I know I don’t do it often, I don’t harm anybody, and really. Life’s way too short to sweat the small stuff!

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18 comments on “Do I?

  1. Great post. Was trying to think of what to respond to today’s prompt and it dawned on me that I don’t really do anything I feel guilty about anymore. I’m comfortable in my skin – I do the things I want to do, and don’t do anything I know I shouldn’t be doing. Life is too short to go around worrying about things like that anyway. Definitely sounds like you’ve earned and deserved whatever little pleasures you take now.

    • Same here – I was thinking, what do I do that I feel guilty about doing?
      And I realised, nothing!!
      I’m done with feeling guilty about the things I do – it only hampers you, and if it really bugs you, just don’t do it again πŸ˜‰
      Thanks for reading, and commenting – much appreciated πŸ™‚

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    • Try it Ruth – it’s divine!!!
      Has to be milk chocolate though – dark chocolate does not work as well, but it’s absolutely decadently delicious πŸ˜‰

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