Such is Sidey’s weekend theme.
I’ve thought about it for the whole weekend, wondering what to do with it.
It came to me yesterday while I was sitting at the Wimpy.
Of course, I was there alone. Earphones in my ears, tunes playing on my gorgeous iPhone, book, also on the phone, food in front of me, coffee to side.
Across from me sat a couple. Dude with his back toward me, chick looking my way every time I look up. Young people, probably not much older than 25 or so.
And I had to wonder, what does the chick see when she looks at me?
Does she see an older woman, happy with her aloneness, comfortable eating on her own in a crowded restaurant. A family spot where there are usually not many single people.
Does she see an unfortunate being, forced to eat on her own because nobody wants to share the little things with her?
Does she think I’m happy with myself and my life? Or did she feel sorry for me, sitting there on my own?
Such is the illusion of reality.
We look at people.
We see what we feel when looking at them.
We don’t know what boils under the surface. We have no idea if that person is sitting there contemplating the death of a loved one, or thinking about suicide. The wife looking at the husband and thinking to herself that she can’t do this any longer. Thinking about the visit to the divorce lawyer she plans on going to in the morning. The guy sitting there, paying with his gold or platinum card, worried about the expenses he’s not able to match come month end.
We see a family, looking well off, kids relatively well behaved – we think they’ve got it made. We don’t know that the child has a learning disability. Or is being bullied at school. or even by the parents. Abuse, bruises, money problems…
Or they look at me and envy me my single state. Able to do what you want, when you want, for how long you want. They don’t see that even that can become a kind of prison. That being on your own, while not the worst thing that can happen, can be a sad thing.
I do try to not judge just by what I see.
Since, if you have not spoken to the people, you have no idea what’s going on in their minds.
Just because i always enjoy this song 😉