Today was a bit of a bust.
Lots to do, did nothing.
And now, I have to think about writing something. Even if only to keep the brain relatively agile.
Became a charity case today – mom’s church bought me food… Don’t quite know how to handle that one! On the one side there’s gratitude – everything I get from other people is something I don’t have to buy myself, freeing up my cash to stopper a hole or 2. On the other side there’s absolute mortification. Embarassment. Hurt pride. Neither one feelings I have the luxury to indulge in. Not in my situation. Then again, if you don’t feel them, what has become of you? Will I become one of those people waiting for handouts? Standing at intersections with a board around the neck, scorched by the sun and the wind, expecting other working people to help me earn a living?
I won’t be that person. I will feel bad about getting food from other people. If I don’t, I will have no incentive to not be there anymore.
I’m only worried that it becomes easier to accept hand-outs every time you get them.
On a lighter note. Woke up this morning with this song in my head – have no idea why – have the CD, but have not listened to it in ages!!
Maybe my sub conscious telling me something?
One never knows!!
Enjoy what’s left of Friday 😉