Vitriol.

Such a cool word, don’t you think?

It conjures pictures of a cauldron, bubbling with a thick, dirty-green substance. Surrounded by the stench of rotten eggs and just a hint of eye of newt – whatever that smells like…

And when it’s linked with emotions, the same applies. When your soul is filled with vitriol, it’s not a good place to be. It’s not a good thing to see. And it’s never good to be around a person filled with vitriol. As I am at this moment.

It was like this yesterday after I came home from the market. Where lots of people fondled the merchandise, and just walked off without buying anything. They have the audacity to come to a place where people are desperate enough to sit behind a table, trying to swallow the humiliation of having hordes walk by and pity you, and all they do is fondle. And then, one of the stall holders behind us, has the nerve to ask for a scarf made from the wool of one of the bags I knitted. Don’t want what’s there, wants something else. Also, she does not speak to me about it, speaks to my sister. Probably because my “Fuck off” button was pulsing bright red yesterday. And since it’s in the middle of my forehead, my sister made me walk around the whole time. I sold a grand total of 3 items yesterday. Nobody even picked up any of the pottery things we made.

Now, how on earth do I feel positive about this? Do I spend another R250 on the stall next month, if the only thing that sells there seems to be food. Yep, every person that walked past us had moving jaws. Vetkoek and jaffels and pancakes and burgers and chiprolls – you name it, they were eating it. And then they would use those same hands to fondle my things?

I doubt that I would go sit there again. They do have a shop where you can take your stuff, and somebody just mans it. Is a bit cheaper than having an actual table, and it means I don’t have to sit there and look all hopeful and pitiful.

Might try a different market, in a different place, see if the clientele is any different, and if people everywhere just comes to a flea market to eat themselvew into even bigger sized clothes and fondle other people’s hard work.

Or do people really not want to spend money on handmade things? Is it because they think it’s rubbish? That something made by hand is somehow less worth it than something made by some chink in China? DO they really rather want to buy cheap, mass-made things? It’s not even as if I’ve priced my things too high. For all the time and effort I put in, they would have gotten it for a song.

But that’s what you get for being dependant on PEOPLE for your livelihood. Measuring your self-worth against what others think of you is a natural reaction. And this would be why I would gladly sever all human ties. I would happily live in a cave, keeping my human contact to a bare minimum. Only see people when I have no other choice, and my interaction would be by the faceless, emotionless, touchless, safe medium of cyberspace.

So yes. For all of you that wished me well, thanks. I do appreciate the good will.

Unfortunately, it would seem that I wil have to find another avenue to create some kind of revenue.

Think a BSDM dungeon might make some money? At least that way, I get to take my frustrations out on the very people responsible for them…

Anyhow.

Time to, once again, cart kids around.

Hope you have a wonderful Sunday…

17 comments on “Vitriol.

  1. I have also often wondered why they actually go to the market if they don’t want to buy stuff. Sorry about the experience ghiatjie and about the way you are feeling.
    *sending the hugs*

  2. I am so sorry to hear that it did not go well! I have been through this as well. I do think that you are mistaken, however, I don’t think people thinks stallholders are pitiful and handmade items are much sought after at the moment! I was told that it takes about 4 months to build up clientele?! I know it is a long time!

    Bloghugs to you!

    • Maybe they don’t think so PPD, but that’s the way I percieve them.
      That’s why I think the shop might be a better idea. That way, I don’t have to see them, and they don’t have to see me 😉
      I’ll try a few other markets too – maybe I find one where people like my stuff.
      Or I have to ship them all down to CT and see if the Valies on holiday there don’t want to buy it then 😉

  3. I was so hoping that this wouldn’t happen to you, 68. I can understand how you feel, as you must be thinking that all your hard work was in vain. I think that maybe you should try putting your stuff in a shop on consignment. At least this way, you won’t have the aggro of watching customers pawing at your precious creations, and than not buying. Hugs to you.

    • The consignment thing does not sound lie a bad idea AD.
      Maybe I’m just feeling low because of hormones or something – anything’s possible I suppose.
      Thanks for the hugs – I could really use one right about now 😉

  4. I’m really sorry your day was not good. My mum has a shop in Wales where she sells homemade items and she told me she started out with the consignment option. I say give it a go. 🙂

      • attempt to have a mix of both home made and mass manufactured…its a learning curve…….but with a little time you will learn a few tricks….variety works….only make or buy two of everything…..if you sell both squire 4……so on so forth…….you will learn what sells…..giggle the prices…increase the price of what sells…not too muck….decrease the price of wht dosent……..

  5. try to find and concentrate on church,school fetes and such like….normally they dont charge rent or the rent is minimal….also cater for kids……every kid has 5 bucks or more in his pocket and if you have someyhing for them to buy they WILL buy it……..ive sold about a thousand little cheapo toys cars…5 bucks a piece….2,50 profit…….also hair elastic stuff for girls……money burns a whole in kids pockets…….but they dont have much and no one caters for their low budget…do so and you have a sure captive client base…………. …….

  6. You mentioned a shop–try it. Might be easier in a lot of ways than sitting for hours watching fingerworks on your merchandise. The trouble with buyers is they’re fickle this minute and MORE fickle the next.

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