Is that not the dream?
Earth hour made me think of this.
As well as the dropping of the kid at a friend.
How nice it would have been to share the soft, candle-lit hour with a significant other, listening to the radio, maybe playing cards or a bord game – just being together.
How nice it wuld have been to share the reposnsibilities with a husband,
It’s been many years that I’ve had to drop off and pick up the kids by myself.
Early hours of the morning doing the taxi rounds.
Taking them to see nice things, teach them manners and responsibilities.
Making sure that they have food to eat, a place to stay, clean clothes to wear, schools to go to.
And even though I have the time and the almost inclination to find another partner of a sort, my time for White picket fences are over.
That’s the kind of thing that you get when you marry the young man of your dreams.
The one that makes your heart beat faster – not out of fear, but out of an immense feeling of love.
The one that realises that you are a person, the one that you can allow to be a person.
A naive belief in the goodness of people.
And such things only happen when you are very young.
Because you still believe in the greatness of love when you’re young.
As you get older, and life starts biting, you lose some of that naivite.
You hide behind walls, guaranteed to keep everything out – be it good or bad.
You hold the person in front of you reaponsible for the deeds of the ones behind you – experience is a harsh task master.
You fear the new person – because he’s unknown.
And maybe, just maybe, you have not gotten rid of the past relationships and are picking another man that will hurt you, that will try and take your soul away from you.
You have a house, a car, furniture, tools – a life.
And somebody else might not fit into that life seamlessly.
You might not fit into his life seamlessly either.
It’s then that you have to ask yourself.
Which is the greater evil.
Beling alone, and mostly loving it.
Or being together and mostly fearing it.
Right this minute, I know what I would choose…
Long days and pleasant nights to all…